Challenges and Decisions

I must admit, returning to the UK these past few weeks has been a very challenging time for me. It’s funny, but every struggle and injury and challenge I put myself through in Last Man Standing, feels like nothing compared to the mental exhaustion of not having clarity in my life. I can handle wrestling with broken ribs, running a mountain marathon in painful sandals, reconstructive knee surgery and not being able to walk for 3 months…but none of that is nearly as hard as dealing with the simple question of ‘what am I supposed to be doing with my life.’ For some reason that question can really steal every ounce of energy from you and leave you feeling totally confused and lost.

For me it has never been that I don’t know what I’m passionate about – it has always been the opposite. My passion is in creating, writing and performing music. You would think this would make it easy… ‘just follow your passion – follow your heart’, people say. But following your heart is no easy thing! And sometimes it does not come down to following your heart, it comes down to just making a decision and going with it.

I realized a few years ago that I am most fulfilled when I am reaching people through music. Inspiring, entertaining, or simply taking them to a different place with music and words. But along the way I also realized that I can reach and inspire people through health and fitness. And on top of that I discovered that I can reach and inspire young people through teaching. So when I think about following my heart – my heart tells me that they are all very positive things, and I must do a little bit of all of them! You can see how that might get me in trouble and lead me to take on too much…

Then from time to time when I’ve found that by following my heart I’m no longer following my true passion, it can leave me feeling quite confused and somewhat depressed.

But ‘confused and depressed’ doesn’t suit me at all!
So I made some good decisions today about my future. I had to. I had to because ‘indecision’ is an unpleasant pain that eats away at your core, and although sometimes you forget that its eating at you, every now and again you remember, and a little bit more of you has gone…

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5 Responses to Challenges and Decisions

  1. Kane says:

    I find myself in a similar situation as you, as I am confused as to the direction of my future. A question I have been asking myself recently; What am I suppose to do with the rest of my life? It is a daunting question as to which I don’t have a definitive answer for. However, I do know this: Life is short. Trust in you heart, trust in God, and do what you love. Things will work out in the end….

    Also, I have seen every episode of Last One Standing and I want to thank you Rajko for being a great inspiration to me. You are a great testament to endurance and hard-work. You truly are a warrior. Thank you for showing people that nice guys do not always finish last.

    Thanks and best of luck to you in the rest of your journey through life

    Matt

  2. Dawn says:

    Let me just tell you, it doesn’t always get easier. I am the type of person that unless I see progress in my self-betterment, I get restless and downtrodden. I’ve been teaching for a few years and have started to feel that restless agitation that begs me to ask the questions — am I doing the right thing? Am I where I need to be? Am I making an impact on anyone or anything?

    I honestly feel that unless you constantly ask yourself the questions you’ll fall into a false security. Someone extraordinarily wise told me that depression is a sign from God that it’s time to act. It’s a blessing that calls you into action so that you can become your true self! That coupled with my old professor’s statement that if you get too comfortable anywhere you stop learning — one only truly learns, changes, develops when they are UNCOMFORTABLE and STRUGGLING have helped me find clarity — if only for a little while

    So, my point: Embrace all of the thoughts and questions you have. Mull them over. Be at peace with them and they will bring peace to you. You are doing what you need to do RIGHT NOW! Your true calling will make itself known.

    Continued success, continued strength, continued faith (trust in him for he will not lead you astray!)

    Dawn

  3. kristenthekatgrrl says:

    Rajko,
    I hope this comment finds you well. Perhaps you will think the following quote a bit clichéd, but it has helped me before in times of confusion in my life; specifically when I felt I was going in circles, so to speak. I hope it helps you as well.

    “You may wonder, ‘How can I leave it all behind if I am just coming back to it? How can I make a new beginning if I simply return to the old?’ The answer lies in the return. You will not come back to the ‘same old thing.’ What you return to has changed because you have changed. Your perceptions will be altered. You will not incorporate into the same body, status, or world you left behind. The river has been flowing while you were gone. Now it does not look like the same river.” -Stephen Foster (American Songwriter)

  4. Cheryl04 says:

    Congratulations on your appoinment as a well being advisor to a London school! God gave you many talents and it’s great you have been given the chance to channel them through to kids that may not otherwise have a positive mentor in their lives. He will never give you more than you can handle. Congratulations again, and many blessings.

    Cheryl A

  5. Jeff Paquette says:

    Rajko you have been a great inspiration to me and have helped me to make some tough decisions about my life and the path i want my life to follow…I’m sure wherever your heart and mind lead you, you will continue to inspire others as you have inspired me all the way over here in Canada.

    Jeff

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